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Man, I looked back at my blog entries and Jesus, they’re so depressing. Makes me want to kick a guy in the face. Yes, I’m extremely nice aren’t I. AHAHAHAH! Anyway, today was an awesome day! I went to Pecshit’s house in the mornign to give him the DVD’s to burn/return. Then I killed him and ate him. Yum. Hmm, then Jo came and picked me up for Stockies. Man Stocklands are small as. It’s like OMFG WTF. :L ~ Hot Dollar is cheap and cool. When Jo & I were walking back to like the main thingo, these girls were like YAY! HOT DOLLAR! It was a Lulz moment. Crazy kids x] We went to buy BLUNT which took ages. It was such a HARD decision. LOLOL. Do you know how KFC treats their chicken!? Well, after knowing that, we wanted to eat but didn’t want to support chicken cruelty, so we bought chips. FUCKING KFC IS A GODDAMNED RIP OFF! I BOUGHT A LARGE CHIPS + LARGE MOUNTAIN DEW FOR FUCKING $8.85! Bloody. Anyway, caught up and stuff. It was lovely. There was these little Posse girls + some asian chick who kept staring at us. Like little glances. It was scary. Damnit AHAHA. Went back to Jo’s place and took luvos after she cleaned her room. Then it was time for me to go home ~ Bye JO! See you soon. (H) When I got home, called up Pecface and went to return dvds + buy gloria jeans. Sareena came too. Man I love that little kid.

Tomorrow I’m seeing Mell and taking June to see The Simpsons movie. I’m dying to see
it! ‘Cause everyones singing SPIDERPIG. LOL I WANNA SING TOO! I hope tomorrow will be a good day. Mainly cause I haven’t finished tutor and like, Jesus the man pisses me off. He’s gonna nag til my face explodes. Also, I have double PE (ewwww) on Monday not to mention double Commerce. Yuck. Hopefully, we’re gonna finish off that Coca-Cola video. Did you know Coca-Cola originally used Cocaine? Yeh, as in that DRUG Cocaine. Isn’t that amazing? And that Micheal Jackson did a Pepsi Ad? Man, I wanna go back to the 80’s. How awesome would that be?

Hmm, today was a bad day. I am sick. Blargh. Nothing seems to be going right anymore. I wonder why ^o).

I seem to be going more invisible.

I seem to be forgotten.

Someone save me.

No I joke. I don’t like big butts AHAHAHAHAHA! Damn you Futurama! Hmm, I haven’t blogged in such a long time. I dunno, perhaps I have lost my will to blog/live. Lol. Well lets recount shall we? Friday was the same as evrey other day, Saturday I didn’t do anything. Sunday I had tutor, which I hate. He gives attention to the guy who’s in yr 10. He doens’t give a shit about me. Fuck you, you can’t teach for shit. Monday was double PE, sounds exciting, doesn’t it? I had to “Cha-Cha” w/ Olivia. I hate dancing. I hate PE, man, I hate life in total. Especially the fucking School. The whole week was the same. Life is so tedious. I hate sport. I hate everything. I could be a better person. I could be. Doesn’t mean I will. I’m just a waste of human life form.
Today was tedious. Life is crap. Suck it up. HAH. Sure man, sure.

Why do I feel so distant from my friends? Do I even have anymore friends?

I wanna move schools.

I wanna not exist. Fuck you God.

My god, I have never had to fight this hard for this fucking game. DAMN YOU CARS!! Stupid Timless River. Today was a shit day. Like, lets say. Friends…Scratch that. “Friends” is more like it. I seem to be hated. I wonder why I try anymore. Somebody kill me.  Please? I’ll pay even you.

Yes, another entry. Yes, procrastinating. Damnit. Bleh. Hmm, today was okay. I guess. I hadddd : IST. I managed to get some of my website done. Wonderful. Jennifer gave me my late…late birthday present! Thankyou Jenniferrrr I WUUUUUV IT lulz. Then  Science. OMG. IT WAS SO BORING. BLAAH! At recess I played DS with Gina (Jina LOL) and Angaaaayeeee. After recess was HSIE. That woman Mrs <GEO DUDE> bores me so much. My god, it was like listening to a bee humming. Bleh. Then Maths. Which was slightly interesting. Gina and I have created: Border Security for Otaku freaks AHHAHAHA. Damn blog. At lunch I drew Biag’s english picture and had a small “tiff” with aheem. Refer to previous blog. After that I had english which wasn’t so bad. I solved a mystery! ^^ Then RE. Meditating and speeches. I should really do my powerpoint. I really should start. I got tonight and tomorrow to do it AHAHA. I better do it or Mrs <JIGGLY FLABS> will do something stupid like send a letter home. Idiot. After school was alriiight I spose.

I wonder, do I really mean anything to anyone anymore? Do I even mean anything to
myself?   I guess not.

I’m obsessed with: Switchfoot - Only Hope. It’s real good kids. Go download it or something :)~ Maybe it has something to do with God. Who cares. Its good. Clicks for religous people
I suppose~

You know what? I’m going to explode. I need to get away from you before I blurt out everything I hate about you. I’m already falling apart at the seams. My sanity going to explode into a rage of fits. Why do you irritate me so much? Why does everything I do seem to be nothing compared to you? Why do I always say the wrong thing? Everything you did to hurt me, I still remember and I remember how much it hurts. I still do. You may think that slapping me in my face, telling me I try too hard to look “cute”, that I look like a retard when I take pictures, telling me that hitting you was disrespectful, using me as a scapegoat right after I came home from Overseas, relating every fucking thing to yourself is nothing. It’s not nothing. It’s fucking everything. It hurts and now that you don’t have “him”, you’re “nicer”. Yeh, you were a bitch. You probably still are, just less of. I have someone too, I think I’m probably became more bitchier. More open, maybe. Meaner to you? Yeh, I guess so. I don’t exploit your secrets. Cause I’m not that much of a bitch. But I know I am. That’s cause I’m me. I hate how you make me feel so stupid and little. I hate how everyone expects me to be with you. I hate how I don’t like you, I hate how you point out the obvious. I hate how you look at me and I hate your voice. I hate how you like to act SUPERIOR. I hate hate hate. I hate how you like to pretend. I hate how you act. I hate that I’m not fucking perfect. I hate that you’re everything I’m not. You act so big. I hate how you like to contradict yourself. Alright, you dislike her. I do too, well not so much anymore but you don’t have to give me that look when she says anything. Its called freedom of speech fucker. I hate that you always better me. I just want to get away from you. Before everything that I’ve concealed in my heart bursts out. I won’t be able to control myself. I won’t be able to stop.  I won’t be able to go back and be simple. Because you know what?
I’m fucking complicated. You can’t push me around anymore, because I can be stronger. I will be stronger in mind and physical abilities. I won’t let you talk me down. I’m
different now. People change, I guess I constantly change too. I’m not that girl you can
push around anymore, you can’t make me cry anymore. Because you know what? You’re not worth it.